[So called] Mild Autism doesn’t mean one experiences Autism mildly… It means YOU experience their autism mildly. You may not know how hard they’ve had to work to get to the level they are at.
Living with Asperger’s, it is easy to feel that you live in a bubble. It feels as if you are surrounded by an invisible barrier; a barrier that prevents you from communicating, socialising and getting close to others. A barrier that has you constantly living life an arm’s length away from the rest of the world.
You see, Asperger’s isn’t a mild condition. It is something you live with every minute of every day. It is part of who you are and what makes you, well, YOU.
I’ve found that it’s difficult for people to understand just how much my Asperger’s affects my life. When you meet me, it isn’t immediately obvious that I am Autistic, which makes my behaviour seem out of place. What people sometimes forget is that Asperger’s is a social communication disorder, that leaves me feeling unable to communicate how I feel.
Often, it is easy to assume the way I react to situations is for attention, when in actual fact, it is an attempt to express an emotion. I easily become flustered when trying to talk about how I feel, and the result is a message that can be easily be confused for attention seeking behaviour.
I like to fiddle, I like to doodle and I like to listen to music. I like to avoid certain situations or set in my mind that I won’t go until the last second so I have less time to become anxious. This can all be confused for attention seeking – but it is not! It’s Aspergers which is a big part of who I am.
Let’s focus our attention on understanding and acceptance, always remembering “It’s NOT for Attention!”